we put the first bulb on the tree together today

and then he held me and we kissed

im blessed

sorry i haven't been around

someone sent me a formspring to make sure im okay

so i kinda feel like i have to check in

im sorry

to be honest, my iman is pretty week right now

i need a pick me up

12799.) I am afraid of the future because all I know is how to remember my bad past.

(via blogsecret)

i feel as if ive hit an all time low

im miserable.

i dont want to stay here with my dad. everything he did, it still hurts.

and i feel like i havent had a boyfriend for about five days now. i swear im competing with runescape for him.

i thought i could stand to be around my dad

turns out the past isn’t far enough behind me yet

i wanna curl up in a ball, and cry myself to sleep

im sorry i havent posted in a while and now im whining.

i feel like an emotional wreck.

has everyone been okay?

i bit the tongue behind my teeth

my personality analysis said im paranoid.

ive realized it’s pretty true.

my mom is going to visit her ex right now.  his jealous rage has made me lose all sense of security in my own home.  i will never talk to him.

i guess you could say im paranoid, while i sit here, imagining all the terrible things that could happen.  the most prevelant is that he will kill my mom.  i don’t trust people. ever. im a bit of a cynic i guess.

i just need sleep.

newspaper

grant is complaining about how lazy he is.

its irritating.

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